Comprehension

I dont know what is wrong with me. Why is it that i have this fear? I just want to be happy and everytime i start feeling happy i fall flat on my face. I'm about to give up and this damn holiday season doesnt make it any easier. Someday ill find my someone, but I need them right now. I've got so much shit running through my head and everyday i just become more and more numb. They dont understand the reason why i am the way i am. They dont understand my feelings. And they certainly dont see the real me.

Nobody understands.